Dearest Olla...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MATE!
The other day I promised you a seeable, yet untouchable birthday gift... so, here it is!!! specially made and tailored for you... but then again, you have the full right whether to like it or not... :D
Hmmm... actually I just want to make some clarification on what happened between us in the past, since you admitted that you felt guilty for leaving the so-called bestfriend for some other 'new' friends. And you're quite sure that it's all your fault (gee, I wish it was true :D).
The point is, nobody left anyone. It was just the two very bestfriends being so close and attached to each other for quite a long time, too close that at some point, unconsciously, they sought for different characters. New friends to share some good laughs with.
You enjoyed hanging out with your classmates, so happy that I wouldn't dare to step in. I decided to back off then. Hey, I still can remember clearly the day when I was reaching the height.
Remember the ritual after class in our school? We had to go to the mosque for prayer. One day, my class finished earlier than yours. Consequently, I had to wait for you in front of your class. While waiting, I was thinking 'should I wait or leave... wait or leave'. I thought that you wouldn't notice if I didn't wait. So I left.
When approaching the wudhu place, I changed my mind. I turned back to your class and waited again, so we could walk together, as usual. And there we were -- you, some of your classmates, and I -- walked together for wudhu.
While taking wudhu, you all were goofing around with waters and laughing. I just couldn't be bothered with that and left. Well, somehow, I decided to back off. Some stupid decision. But hey, we're just kids, and kids do some silly things, eh? :)
And for the love of God, I've got to admit that I really really really regretted my decision. But then I was too ashamed to talk to you, it felt so awkward. Since then, we never talked to each other again. That stupid, impulsive decision has sent me to the guilt trip for years. Believe me it has!
That's why I was so glad when we met again in the university, sat together in one of the classes, and started to talk. I marked that day in my journal with "RECONCILE". Well, I wasn't expecting us to be as close as before, but at least the awkwardness could be pushed away. Fair enough. And I was happy for that.
But apparently, God has another plan. For some funny and unexplainable reasons, we're getting closer again these days. Starting to hangout together, planning to go here and there, though most of the time I cancelled it with stupid excuses :)
Well then, let bygones be bygones. Maybe we were just doing what good friends must do. An old drunken wise man once said, "Sometimes people need what only bestfriends can provide... Absence!" ... and that's what we did.
And now, allow me to share some memorabilia from the past... ;)
hehehehe... I can't remember exactly when these pictures taken. It was when we were in kindergarten and haven't known each other yet. But I do remember that I hated you because you often stepped on my foot unintentionally :D
well, gotta admit that it's quite embarrassing to have the so-called buku kenangan. But I had it anyway :D
hmmm, no comment on this one. Just a regular class picture
the old time tradition, sending each other conventional card for Ied. Have no idea why I still keep it :D
Must say that I was so surprised when receiving this card :)
... and the ice started melting... :D
Alright, I think I'd better stop all the crap now, before it's getting too corny!...
Anyways, again I wish you A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
*Hope you like the gift ;P
** If you don't like this one, you MUST like the other gift I promised, a book by Antoine de Saint Exupéry, The Little Prince, one of my all-time favourite books.
cheers,
ftd!
PS. despite all the crap and corny things I've said above, would you now admit that I am a romantic kind of person? ;P
