here comes the story of my love life...

the following song (with changes in some part of the lyric) from the beatles could describe what I am feeling right now... go figure!

Of all the love game I have won or have lost
There is one game I should never have dropped
He was a man in a million, my friend
I should have known he would win in the end

I'm a loser
And I lost someone who's near to me
I'm a loser
And I'm not what I appear to be

What have I done to deserve such a fate
I realise I have left it too late
And so it's true, pride comes before a fall
I'm telling you so that you won't lose all

.....

and the following song from the cure could give some advice on what I should do... go figure!

say this is it, don't say maybe, don't say no
say this is it, don't say hold on, don't say slow
say this is it, don't say next time, don't say when
say this is it, don't say later, no don't say then

just say yes! Do it now!
Let yourself go!
Just leap! Don't look!
Or you'll never know
if you love it
you might really love it...
If you love it
you might really love it!

Oh come on and love it!

Yeah this is it, don't be cautious, don't think twice
this is it, don't play it safe, don't put it on ice
yeah this is it, don't chew it over, no don't kick it around
this is it, don't wait and see
DON'T TRY TO WORK IT OUT

.... oh well, regret always comes too late, eh?
ftd!