cry for help...

don't know where to start
just wanna scream
and let it out of the system
why...
why not...
why can't I...
all I need is just 4000 words more
how hard could it be?
all the materials are there
the books are there
what's missing then?
... the brain!!!
ouch, what a pity...
damn, it hurts!
why, oh, why :((((((
ftd!